Just read a friend's blog, he recommends some fantastic American songs, and suddenly, I realized that I couldn't sing any one of them although I definitely heard them and loved them. More suddenly, I found that after being here in US for 3 years, the American movies I watched, the American songs I listened, the American novels I read are even less than in China. Can't imagine how desperate I was to come here when I was back in China! Ye, that's classic me.. Always wanna get outta current life, yet totally have no idea of where to go...

 

Since I was very young, I've been trying to run away from my family. The first time I tried was when I was 4 years old, well, not really "running away", I stayed at my friend's home and didn't come home. That night, when my mom found me there, u can imagine, I got the biggest "beat" in my life! So, during the years in the elementary school and middle school, I've been a "good" girl who was always the teachers' "favorite" student, and of course, never left home without telling mom. I never enjoyed that life as a "good" student because the life I really wanted was the life those "bad" students had, skipping classes, playing around and dating, the life exactly my small aunt had, who's only one year older than me, we used to be the best friends since child and in the same class in middle school but completely seperated because the damn "good and bad"! But last summer when I went to see her, guess what? We both found that we are totally the same now! I guess that's how we grow up, no matter what we were as a child, we grow into similar adults somehow, someway.

 

//sigh, I'm running away from my topic again, now ya know, what is "classic me"? reading the words now, I'm really confused how I can write down such stupid things for such a wise topic.. anyway, I'll try to continue tomorrow, now show show my cool small aunt, the guy behind her was my big uncle, who used to be my "prince charming" 20 years ago...